Sometimes, there are people in the world that have a hard time being able to function with others. This is not necessarily a bad thing, but it usually takes an understanding and patient person to “get them”. I think that’s what I was trying to do. I thought that it would be nice to spend some time with the guy. Get to know him on a more personal level. But before I knew it, it was the most uncomfortable experience and no one was there to rescue me. Now I’m faced with some choices. I can either pretend that I wasn’t uncomfortable at all and hope that all blows over, or I can delve into it like an invested new daughter should.
I don’t know how to be someone else’s daughter! I haven’t a clue how to go about relating to these people in this way! I felt okay about it until the other night. Things were still polite and there was a necessary distance to it all. But now, a new and a little bit scary door has been opened.
Alcoholism is a really scary bitch. My dad told me to read a book by a man named Jeff Jay called “Love First”. So if anyone is struggling with an alcoholic loved one, apparently that is the book to read. An intervention is probably just around the corner. That’s all I want to be involved in. I just want to forget about that night. He thinks we really bonded. We did I guess, but there were just things that were said that I can’t just feel good about. So I want to just let it die.
Well, I guess as long as I try to “love first” than all of it will turn out okay. Plus, I have this wonderful guy that loves me very much and supports me. His family loves me too.
It’ll be fine, ventilation is good.