but I guess that’s what happens when your life gets thrown in a bottle and shaken around like salad dressing…
I’m slowly regaining my energy, am less pukey, and I’m generally starting to feel more like myself. I’m 12 weeks this Thursday, which means in two weeks I’ll be starting my second trimester. I hear that will be a fun time. I’ve heard some women feel better than they ever have in their life! I’m not showing yet, but I can’t suck my stomach in like I used to, and my pants are a little snugger. I don’t think I’ll need to change my wardrobe very soon- I’ll just make adjustments here and there.
I actually haven’t been thinking about the pregnancy that much really. I check on things here and there, and I am certainly aware of it every day… I do think it has brought about quieter, less obvious changes as of late. I’ve noticed that I’m full of ideas on how to improve things around the house (if only I had energy to execute them!). I’m also thinking a little differently. It’s hard to explain really, but I’m already becoming more assertive (in ways I really needed) and thinking about what kinds of things I want to work on in myself before this happens. This has been both stressful and freeing at the same time. Jeff has certainly been helpful to me, and is as steadfast as ever. He called me at work this morning when he woke up just to say that he was proud of me. I was like “for what?!” He just said for all of it. That he believes that I do the right thing to the best of my ability, that I’m good and kind, and that he’s proud of me and loves me. Did I luck out or what? I’m so happy to be starting a family with the love of my life.
I was talking to Becky on the phone the other day. I told her the news and she was really excited. She was truly inspiring, and told me that this is the time in my life to be really grateful, to treat each moment as precious and one-of-a-kind. She said that these are the times that people look back on and cherish. I hope that even through all of the stress and change that is waiting for me in the coming months, that I am able to really stay grateful and happy no matter what.
I really do hope to get back into 365 soon, but I’m also not beating myself up for anything right now. I’m trying to stay as relaxed as ever.