All I know is that I feel like this is a stupid game. I feel like I’m chasing after this friend all the FUCKING time. I’m tired, and I have no energy to chase anymore. Maybe we are just not good friends. We love each other, but we are not good? It happens all the time in romantic relationships, so why not this one? I guess that the break up is not as easy to see.
Well, that makes me feel sad. I don’t know what will happen, but the ball is in her court and I can’t do much else other than wait and hope that something changes between us. I don’t even understand what happened the other day at all, to me it was just a display of a dysfunctional relationship. No matter what I know that it all needs to change to survive. Doesn’t necessarily need to end.
This entry was therapeutic for me, so don’t worry if it didn’t make any sense.
I will give too:
Affirmation card for the day(being pulled now)-
I USE MY FEARS AS SIGNS THAT GUIDE AND PROTECT ME.
Use this gift when your fears prevent you from acting in your best interest. Our fears exist to help keep us safe from harm and from repeating mistakes we have made. If we seek to understand why we are afraid, we can make fear our friend and helper, not our master. It is important to avoid fearing success and the many changes it will bring.