I’m sore, but in a really good way…

You know that deep burn that you get the day after a good workout, the kind that leaves you really feeling your body and muscles and stretching takes on this kind of heavenly pain? Well, I’ve got that. I started this new postnatal exercise regimen that really makes you target muscles and, even though it’s not hard, it is a lot of repetition and sort of forces you to do the exercise correctly. Whew. It’s good stuff. I also took two walks yesterday because it was so great out. Anyway, I feel good. Also, as Jeff was about to leave for class I sort of mumbled to myself that I need a nap, a long shower, and a full body massage. He turned to me and said “I’m sure we can work something out…”     That’s what I’m talkin about.

Lately, in addition to feeling fantastically good about most things, I am really starting to realize how flipped life is once a baby is in the picture. This is not really bad or good- just really really different. Like, I was so used to life being so cyclical. The week would go by, and then Friday would come and I’d have this weekend ahead of me- full of opportunity and freedom. Well, I don’t get a weekend anymore. Sometimes I don’t even really get a night. It just all keeps going. Every time I start to feel overwhelmed by that I just remember that life was always in one straight line, it’s just my feelings about certain times that gave me the illusion of a “break.” Well, now I don’t get a “break” anymore, but I can still be relaxed and happy and entertained. All of those things are still there, the timing is just not nearly so predictable. Yay for adventure! Yay for life that doesn’t have any breaks- because really I don’t want a break. Usually if I get that feeling I need something else- rest, comfort, attention- but not a break. Life doesn’t really give us breaks. I suppose if you wanna get dark then the real break from life would be death, and I know I’m in no rush. I guess all I’m saying is that, even though things are busy and sometimes relentless, I love it and I know that I want to cherish and inhale it all day long.

March 25th:
Hahaha. She does this all the time, and sometimes her lips will quiver and it will fall out completely.

March 26th:
Now I understand the whir of laundry that most mothers seem to be caught in. Now if I could just get everything put away…

March 27th:
Maya loves loves LOVES other dogs. She has a best friend next door, a pug named Ruthie. They have two dogs, Ruthie and Jade, but Jade is not as friendly so really Maya just plays with Ruthie. Every time she sees the owner come home she goes crazy asking me to go outside. I let her out and she just whizzes around the corner and sits right at the fence watching. This doesn’t even guarantee that the dogs will come out- but she just waits there occasionally letting out a whiney bark. I’m excited for the warm weather because then she can have more play time with them and she’ll meet dogs at the park too.

Bonus:
Just messing around. I like how sometimes you can get a picture to look almost like a painting.

Tonight I’m going to the ICPJ dinner and a movie event with Gretchen and Tuula. The movie seems really interesting. After that we are going to a bar (very briefly as babies will be in slings) to say goodbye to our friend who is randomly leaving for the Navy. What is up with all these folks joining up? I mean, it’s even more confusing cuz it’s people I never would have guessed- who are completely opposed to the war too. It makes me sad, but what can I do? So we’re going to wish him well. Should be a good night though, all in all.

Quote of the day:
“Sometime they’ll give a war and nobody will come.” -Carl Sandburg

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Comments (25)

  1. publicansdecoy

    I’m just loving reading your story about having a child.

    It’s making me feel so broody!

    -x-

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    1. Gracie (Post author)

      Mwahahaha! I love that! Do you and the future Mrs. have any hatching plans?

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      1. publicansdecoy

        Oh, probably, but they’re years away yet!

        -x-

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  2. Anonymous

    Love love love the top pic of Vera! You right about the weekend. I think it would seem even less “weekendy” if you were home all week. If you go back to work the weekend will seem more “weekendy” but it will also seem 10x shorter.

    Speaking of work, when are you bringing Vera back in for a visit? Suzie was asking because she is working on a surprise for you and Very-Pie. I’m loving your love of life. I need to start inhaling more.

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    1. Gracie (Post author)

      I guess I could come back soon to visit! That would be nice. I think maybe I could come on a Tuesday, maybe not this coming one but the next? I want to be sure to see Neal.

      Yes yes! Inhale it all! Although, you seem really in a great place to me- I love reading your thoughts now… haha! How is everything there?

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      1. Anonymous

        can we shoot for the 15th? we are all doing well. inventory is chugging along, although i do miss you! i am very conflicted about hoping you come back to work. i would like for you to not have to but selfishly i’d love it if you did.

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        1. Gracie (Post author)

          Sounds good! Haha, well I miss you guys. I wouldn’t mind coming back part time, but child care is an issue- we just can’t afford it. Ah well.

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  3. purerandomness

    Ohh that Maya! Soo cute!
    Olive does that sort of thing too, when she sees other dogs being out and walked. She RUNS over to the windows and sits, sometimes whining a little.

    It seems to us that she’s saying “Look! See? I’m being good! Can I PLEASE go out and play with that wonderful new doggie friend that I’ve never met before? PLEASE?!?!”

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    1. Gracie (Post author)

      Haha! I love putting thoughts in their heads! How is Olive these days?

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      1. purerandomness

        She’s loving the snow right now. Cutie pies, that’s what our dogs (and Vera!) are!! πŸ™‚

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  4. Gracie (Post author)

    Re: hmmm

    Very cool! Unfortunately it looks like those plans are falling through for a couple of reasons. Anyway, I do plan on going to those every month. That would be so fun to see you there if you went too!

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  5. pearlstreetdiva

    THANK YOU for helping me to remember the positive. you are so insightful

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    1. Gracie (Post author)

      AW! You are always inspiring me! I think to myself “What a beautiful mother and family…”
      I’m so happy you’ll be here this weekend!!!! Woohoo!

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  6. nashifeet

    what bar? corner brew? its baby friendly πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚

    it is crazy how things just…go. no cycle. just…go.

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    1. Gracie (Post author)

      I think TC Speakeasy, so how long we stay is pretty much dependent on how smoky it is… I love Corner Brewery. I live about 3 blocks from there- just over the railroad tracks. Anyway, we (me, you, and Gretchen) should go there sometime!

      Exactly. Yep. Crazy.

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      1. nashifeet

        oh no way! last year for the shadow art fair we were there, and we walked down some street and at the end by the tracks was a tiny red house and it was for sale and i wanted it so bad.

        we should go there sometime! are you free tuesday? if she is as well, we should all go.

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        1. Gracie (Post author)

          I’m free during the day- we have dinner plans at like 5 though. I’m not sure what G’s doing that day, I’ll check with her. Either way we can make it happen at some point- it’ll be fun!

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  7. purerandomness

    PS- Jake says, about your icon:
    “Oh! That’s Le Petit Prince by Antoine d’Exupary.” < -- He had a very hard time spelling that, and I don't speak/read French so we have no idea if that's correct.

    He likes your userpic from a story that he knows and liked. ;-p

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    1. Gracie (Post author)

      Yes, it’s a great story. You should check it out- I think it’s an important one to know. It’s one of my favorites and I can’t wait for Vera to love it too. Oh, and I just looked and you were close- it’s Antoine de Saint-Exupery.

      P.S. You are right about the cuteness of our pups. It’s almost a sin.

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  8. pithy_epigrams

    You and Vera look soooo sweet!

    I wish I could see that movie, it breaks my heart every day I leave the house here. So many people who need help. I wish some of the billions used in the War could of gone to help the homeless. (Along with A LOT of other things!)

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    1. Gracie (Post author)

      YES! I know!!! Isn’t it bizarre when you realize how much could be changed if we just wanted it?
      I didn’t end up seeing the movie- babies and cars and whatever. I am going to watch it independently though. I bet it’s on Netflix or something.
      Is it really bad where you live? I mean, I bet, it’s LA.

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      1. pithy_epigrams

        YES. It’s really bad. And it’s really troubling. Because sometimes it’s just too much. I really don’t have money to give away. I buy groceries with my change. And I feel really bad. There are a lot of programs aimed to help the homeless, but they usually require you be sober and in at a certain time. So this means a lot of the people who need help, who need food, are out of luck. Not to mention the amount of homeless who have serious mental illnesses, like Schizophrenia. Sometimes I get so angry when a homeless person digs through our trash and dumps it everywhere for me to pick up, but I just have to remind myself that they are so desperate they are digging through trash. Something needs to change.

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  9. see_anotherside

    It feels like such a long time since I last left you a comment. I’m sorry!

    I love that photo of you and Vera – mother and daughter, it looks so beautiful and peaceful, and the lighting is really nice too. Also, Maya sounds like very social dog. Mine kind of aren’t… they mostly just stay in the garden and play there so they don’t meet many other dogs, but Rosie growls at people she doesn’t know and snaps at ankles. They’re a handful!

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    1. Gracie (Post author)

      Oh that’s ok! Seems like it’s kind of a struggle for you to get on the internet these days. I’d rather you post than comment, and if you’ve got a slow connection you generally only have patience for so much.
      Oh pups! I would love to see some new dog pictures if you get around to it. I hope things are not too boring there without Ste!

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      1. see_anotherside

        Hmm I am bored, but taking some new pictures would be a good way to pass time, so I’ll get on that. πŸ™‚

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