I HATE MONEY

I’m so frustrated. Jeff and I just crunched numbers and we basically can’t afford for me to go to school. He says we’ll work something out, but I’ve already postponed school twice so that we could save money, and it’s still just not delivering. We just can’t afford it. We’re eating into our savings and I just don’t know what to do. Most days I have total faith that this stuff will work out- and that it’ll happen when it’s supposed to. Today, however, I feel hopeless and stifled. I hate that being a mother and student isn’t valued enough in this society to not wrack up loads of debt just to learn and raise my child. I know it’s more complicated than that, but in the so-called "land of opportunity" there seem to be more obstacles than pathways for me right now. I suppose it’s compacted by the fact that all my friends are back in school now. 

I’m sure I’ll post later feeling better, but for now I’m just gonna be mad. Grrr. I’ve already emailed a guy about cleaning his house a few times a month. We’ll see if I can collect odd jobs and we can make it through this.

Gracie
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Comments (10)

  1. purerandomness

    🙁

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    1. Gracie (Post author)

      🙂

      I’m a bit better now!

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  2. pithy_epigrams

    I’m so sorry to hear this Grace. I hope you guys can figure something out. It’s too bad there aren’t special grants for Mothers in school. There ought to be. I’ll try to send positive energy your way.

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    1. Gracie (Post author)

      You know, I wonder if I can try to hunt some down… Thanks. I think I’m picking up on that positive energy!

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  3. pearlstreetdiva

    I know you are disappointed. you do get to learn so much from raising your precious baby! you are doing it responsibly though and that will pay off in the end.

    what are you planning on studying in school?

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    1. Gracie (Post author)

      That’s a good way of looking at it- I will probably look back at this time and only see my baby and not some bump in the road.

      I want to go to the massage institute and then go finish my social work degree after that, when Vera’s a little older. I also want to get my master gardeners certification. I will do it, though. In time.

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  4. see_anotherside

    Oh I’m sorry, that’s such a shame. I really hope that someday soon it all works out and you get to return to school. I guess sometimes, as annoying as they are, in the end obstacles might just be a test for how much we want something?

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    1. Gracie (Post author)

      Thanks! I like that- I look back at all of the hurdles in my life with pride, now that they are long gone. This must be the same way.
      🙂

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  5. 93_millionmiles

    Have you filled out your FAFSA this year? With your adorable new dependent, I’d be surprised if you couldn’t get a Pell grant or some other type of assistance.

    Most of the grants I’ve found for moms involve being single but there are lost of general scholarships and ones geared towards women that only require a personal essay or something similar. Fastweb.com has a pretty good scholarship search.

    I’m going through something similar with Noah. He has never been to college and with as much as he has to work while I’m in school it seems like it would be impossible. Financially, there is no way I could switch places with him and even after I graduate I doubt I could make as much as he does now to cover our expenses. He gets bummed out about it sometimes and it’s hard to know that what you want is just out of reach for the moment, but things change and I really believe that if you want something badly enough you can make it work eventually.

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    1. aamour

      Aww Grace! I hate money too… ugh.

      I was going to say the same thing this person said. Check out FAFSA and apply for loans, grants and scholarships! There has to be something out there!
      Can you just take one or two classes at a time? Perhaps even online classes so you can stay home with Vera?

      Good luck <3

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