…and here we go!
My birthday. I’m 24! The highest number, if you didn’t know. It was great. I felt really out of it this year, I kept forgetting that it was going to be my birthday until someone reminded me. It was weird, usually I get that twinge of excitement for about a week before my birthday, but now that I have mom-brain I just don’t think that way anymore. Perhaps that’s what helped me have one of the best birthdays I’ve had in a while. They are always good, but this one felt different. Maybe it’s my newfound respect for birth in general, the love I have for my mother for birthing me, and the miracle of a new soul coming into the world. It’s a beautiful thing. I understand why my birth is important now in a way I didn’t before. Anyway, each and every one of the gifts I received made me all soft because they were so thoughtful. It’d be easy to say that I feel a bit tossed under the waves of new motherhood, but it’s become very clear that the people around me really love and see and know me. I’m so glad I was born.
Taken on our phone, so forgive the terrible quality and darkness, is just a snippet of the sushi adventure we had that night. This restaurant had half off all sushi so we went and gorged ourselves. It was heavenly, and we all left just the tiniest bit high from all the deliciousness. My dad is a truly generous and fun soul, and he seemed pleased to order us all 25 rolls not including the sashimi we ordered. It was fabulous and everyone was very happy. I can’t wait for Vera to experience it. Tuula is a very picky eater these days, and even she likes sushi. So there.
I think I might seriously spend half of my waking hours giggling.
I realized that I never really show the other half of my garden. This is the view from the other side of the yard, the narrow part by the side of the house. It goes almost all the way back to the trash cans by the fence (that Jeff built!). Anyway, it’s a jungle of tomatoes, cucumbers, peppers and eggplant. Oh, and lots of lettuces and stuff going to seed… cuz I need to get on top of it.
We went to visit my mom’s parents. From right to left: my mom, my grandpa, my aunt Melanie, my cousin Emily, and my dad. They were all watching pictures on the tv- they have one of those things that can scroll through the pictures in someone’s camera as a slideshow. I like people from this view, you know, like they’re lost in something. My little sister likes to look back at people during really intense parts of a movie. I have always wanted to, but I inevitably forget because I’m always too into it.
This day we spent with Jeff’s only living grandparent, his dad’s mother. She’s made of awesomeness, and I love going to see her. We talk philosophy and art and politics and whatever. I’ve never had that kind of relationship with the elderly, although I’m sure it’s because I am only newly adult and able to even truly hear what they say. I’m just glad my ears are open now. Unfortunately she’s not doing that well, health wise, so we have to make a point to go see her often. I have really grown to like her a lot, and I’m pretty sure she likes me as well. On our way out she said "Jeff was always wonderful, but now he’s married a wonderful woman." I feel so honored to be enveloped in the warm arms of his entire family. I feel like I belong.
It’s been an ongoing struggle to try to keep Maya’s hair situation under control. So, we decided that we’d brush her at least every other day, as it seems I cannot vacuum enough. I would never trade my dog for anything, but I have spent many hours on my hands and knees vacuuming the hair from under everything. Just a testament to my love for her. I’d do it again in a heartbeat. I love having a dog. When I saw this crazy bunch of hair I wondered if it could be spun into yarn or something useful…. perhaps just bird’s nests for now.
Yesterday was our anniversary. We’ve been married 3 years, and I can’t imagine myself any happier. Jeff pulled the biggest one on me too! He left for work at 6:30, like usual. Then he called me at 8 just to see what was up and whatever, and then he had me do some weird stuff on the computer for him. I didn’t know what I was doing, but he’s the expert, so I just did it. Then all of a sudden the printer starts going! Out pops the sweetest letter ever all about lots of gushy stuff you don’t want to hear about and I cried all over the place. I’ll just give you an exerpt: "I feel free of the dark days of my past filled with self-loathing and doubt. I look forward to a bright future with you and our children." Melt.
So I called him and he laughed about tricking me into sharing the printer with his computer and yeah, he’s a tricky one. Then the dog started barking like crazy. I went to go see who was here and in pops Jeff! He took the day off work and was actually at the bar behind our house! He was holding the most beautiful orchid in his hands and smiling from ear to ear. Clever boy. I’ve always wanted an orchid but never had the money. While I’m swooning over the orchid he uncovers a tripod for my camera! He knows that I hate the way flash makes things look, so I’m always steadying the camera up against whatever object I can to try to get a clear picture. Now I can do so much more with my photos!! I’m excited. He also got me a mini tabletop tripod too! I got him tickets to go see David Sedaris this fall. We love him, it’ll be so much fun. Plus, our friends got tickets too, so we’ll make a night of it!
We dropped off Vera at his mom’s house and went to the Earle- a fancy shmancy restaurant downtown. We loved it and talked about how being poor has been a blessing because of all the things we can really appreciate now. I think it’s true though. We had way too much fun just eating and hanging out in the nice atmosphere. Certainly we are not poor compared to many in the world, but I do see how having to be really frugal and not buy frivilously has only positively impacted us. We did talk about how it would be nice to be more financially stable in the future, but I think we both agree that we never want to get too used to an unsustainable standard of living, and so not a lot of money is a good thing for us. The occasional fancy restaurant will do us just fine- it’s much more fun only being able to do it once a year.
Some bonus pictures:
I had some fun with this ridiculous program where you can upload a photo and… well you’ll see. Here are some of my favorites:
I almost peed my pants while I did these. I still can’t stop laughing at them.
Also, a few of my favorite wedding pictures:
And just a nice one that Jeff took of us yesterday.
Quote of the day:
"You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.
You shall be together when the white wings of death scatter your days.
Ay, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.
But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.
Love one another, but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other’s cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf.
Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone, Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.
Give your hearts, but not into each other’s keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
And stand together yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other’s shadow. "