Back to earth!

Finding a quiet moment here to write is such a nice thing right now! Everything is going very well. The birth went great, my milk has already come in (so I’ve got a happy baby and toddler), and I’m already feeling better walking around and doing stuff- although I know I still need to take it slow. We got ridiculously little sleep until last night, but I’m feeling pretty refreshed for being 3 days postpartum. We’ve also had loads of visitors, which has been really nice. When you can’t do much more than nurse and sit and be tired, hanging out with people and talking is really nice. This morning Jeff had to go do some work for an hour or so, so I set Vera up with a movie and Asa is just sleeping next to me. And so life resumes! It is going to be nice to have Jeff home for the next few weeks. While Vera is loving the baby, it’s a new and stressful time for her, and I can tell she needs our attention and patience. I’m also dealing with hormones and new sensations and near constant sensory-overload, so I am so so grateful for all the help and attention we’ve been getting. Life can just be such a ride! 

I’m piecing together my memories of the birth and will write up a birth story soon. Although it won’t be nearly as eventful as Vera’s! No late night trips to the hospital and back… I think this birth was equally as profound to me, though. I find the whole process to be really eye-opening and full of lessons. Each meal and hour of sleep I get brings up more and more reflections on the whole thing. And you know me-I’m hopelessly introspective. I guess I’ll save most of it for when I actually sit down and write about it, but I will say that I feel really lucky to have educated myself and had the births that I wanted. They’ve really contributed to who I am as a person, now, and I’m incredibly grateful for the experience and the community I have as a result- not to mention I just think I’m a better person for having gone through it, on a really basic level. I’m not at all interested in resuming birth work at the moment, but who knows what the future holds. I’m just glad to have done a little of it, for now, and I’m looking forward to just keeping things extremely simple around here.

And as for this little person, he’s pretty perfect if you ask me. So skinny and soft and sweet… I’ll have to fatten him up. 🙂 His eyes are that pretty dark blue that infants have- we’ll just have to wait to see what color they turn. He has Jeff’s pinky finger and the sweetest little toes… He’s strong like Vera was, already holding his head up quite a bit. Although he’s got almost no hair- she had an entire head full. He’s a great nurser, and we only had a few times where it was stressful to get all latched on. I’m really grateful for no nursing problems so far. And the smell! He smells so sweet, it’s amazing. 

And now everyone told me this would happen, but it’s true- Vera is ENORMOUS. I mean, she’s still just this little two year old, but now when I pull her into my lap she just seems like this whole thick person compared to the little delicate baby. Her head is huge. Such a sweetie. I feel so much love for her- more now that she’s got this new role to fill. 

The dog hair has been getting to me. There’s just so much. We sweep and vacuum and it’s just everywhere. So we’ve been going at Maya with brushes and trying to get it all out. At least to the point where it’s manageable. I’m not a clean-freak by any means, but having tumbleweeds of hair float through the house a day after you cleaned the floors is a little irritating. Plus with visitors pulling hair out of babies mouths and… I’ve just had enough! To illustrate my point, have a look.

That’s just a once over. We keep getting that much every time we brush her. Thankfully, I think it’s working. It’s like this really soft under coat that we just had to get at. I feel bad just composting it… I feel like we should be stuffing pillows or something. I love that hairy dog.

The garden. This morning I went out alone and just breathed in the early air. It’s so perfect. I’m really glad to be in the middle of summer, now. When Vera was born it was mid February and I just looked longingly out the windows… This is way better. I spent a large portion of the day outside yesterday, and the days to come will be much the same. Plus, little boy was a little jaundiced yesterday so we stripped him down and put him in a little sun. He looks way better today. Anyway, I’m grateful to have this space. So so grateful. It’s much more productive than I thought it would be right now, though, so I’m already doing some food storage. I’m actually happy about it- it’ll give me projects to do while I’m still taking it slow. Aren’t those potato boxes wild? I hope they give us a good turn out, I’d love to do them every year- they are so pretty.

There are lots of fun pictures to come, they just all reside on other people’s cameras at the moment. Soon!


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Comments (10)

  1. purerandomness

    He’s just perfect. Both your babies: perfection. I’m glad you’re feeling better and things are going well. Let me know if you need ANYTHING (especially once Jeff is back at work!) and I’m more than happy to drop by to see you and harvest some stuff from your garden or take Maya for a walk or just anything you need.
    I completely understand the HUGE amounts of dog fur coming off the puppies! It seems as though I sweep or vacuum nearly every day and there are still little clouds floating around and appearing from under furniture. Gross. We need to be better about brushing and swimming Olive. She’s probably very uncomfortable.

    Enjoy your babymoon! Take it easy 🙂

    1. moondaughter20

      “babymoon”… I LOVE that! 😀

  2. impeccablyme

    Once again, I’m tearing up! So happy for you and your family. Glad to hear that the birth was everything you’d hoped for and that nursing is going well. <3

  3. muirichinnahali

    It’s crazy how big your first babies seem once the new little ones come along! Everyone told me the same ahead of time, but it was still super shocking. haha He really is a beautiful baby. 🙂

  4. yayhappens

    He is a beautiful baby and looks like an angel all wrapped up in the blanket there. I feel mostly speechless. There is just too much goodness for words floating around about your post.

    I can’t believe your little dog is shedding that much hair on one brush-through! That’s pretty crazy!

    Your garden is so lush and comfortable-looking. All of the different scents must be wonderful to experience while walking through.

  5. pagangoat

    What a little darling:)
    I laughed when you said how big Vera’s head looks…sometimes when I’ve been alone with just Eilidh for days, when I see Kris again, his head looks ENORMOUS!
    So glad nursing is going well, and you seem in good spirits. I remember feeling really weepy and sad off and on for the first few weeks PP. But that might have been exacerbated by me being alone so much.
    Beautiful garden, beautiful family:)

  6. poppleshatesyou

    Beautiful beautiful beeb!

    Remember to take it easy!! Do your body and your beebs the favor and let your body recover!

    Can’t wait to read Asa’s/your birth story.

  7. haurelia

    Mmmm, that newborn smell-so sweet! It should be bottled, somehow. 🙂

    Glad to hear all is going well. Just keep it slow and simple as you are, and enjoy all that beautiful oxytocin circulating around! Thank goodness for hormones, I tell ya!

  8. Anonymous

    Love your thoughts on things it’s so nice to read! He’s such a sweet baby! It’s funny how BIG and grown up the new baby makes a toddler look…I can’t remember why I thought Jabin was so little now that I have Judah! I am glad nursing is going well for you, I am still iorning out some kinks in our breastfeeding at almost 6 weeks!

    I wonder what IS that new baby smell? do men find it irresistable too?


  9. moondaughter20

    I’m glad things are going so well with you all right now. I think that’s largely due to all the planning and where you put yourself with your head, and heart, space.

    Even though it’s not exactly the same, I know what you mean about Vera seeming so big all of a sudden. When we got Lucy, it was like Luna was suddenly this giant dog! I’ve never seen her that way before.

    I’m glad Asa has a summer birthday. I guess he’s a Leo then? Almost made it as a Cancer. But summer birthdays are the best! Everyone loves celebrating them, so Asa should do well in his life. 🙂

    Enjoy and embrace all those amazing, miraculous moments of life. ♥


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