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Something you all should know about the lorax…

http://www.geekteacher.net/lorax.html

Yes, indeed, I own a thneed. It really is something that everyone needs.

So the wedding is moving along really nicely. I was nervous that I wouldn’t know what I wanted(I can be a little indecisive and passive at times) but I’m doing fine. It’s gonna be really fun and non-traditional. Plus, I get to marry the most wonderful man in the world- so of course it’s not hard planning this.(He’s got a beard, Marya 😉
My aunt’s surgery went perfectly. So perfect, in fact, that she may have a chance. We are all ecstatic and thankful. So thanks higher power for that one.
ummm, no affirmation today, but the story should suffice.

Quote of the day:
“Insane people are always sure that they are fine.… Continue Reading...

cigarettes, and life, and breath, and coffee, and cigarettes…

FUCK! I almost had it too. I caved yesterday and bought a pack. I feel icky about it, but at the same time I know that if I don’t really mentally quit, then I won’t. Sucks though. I have new shame associated with it. I feel like hiding whenever I have one. I think I might use the 12 steps to quit this time. They never fail if you do them right.
Well, it would help if all of my friends quit. I don’t even think about it if I’m not around it… but when I am! golly. The sick part of me is happy about the fact that it’s an appetite suppressant. That’s the sick part of me though. I can’t really see any other plus, besides that I’ll get to smoke.… Continue Reading...

Relax everybody, nothing has changed as of right now…

So the way that I’m thinking about it is: yesterday he was president and so is he today. One day at a time people. The stuff that’s aggravating to me is that people get all extra pissed off on certain days. What about all the others? This is what makes me think that we are all talk and no action.
We only feel passionate about it when the time is good and right. Bummer, friends. If we want anything to change we need to think up an actually feasable plan. then we have to take steps to execute that plan. then the plan will be executed, and we will have done something. Until then, i think that we shouldn’t spend any of our time being pissed off because the only reason that we should be is because of our own laziness.… Continue Reading...

i am not superman… no siree!

Well, as much as I wanted to tackle the world in one shot, I don’t think I can do it. I had planned to work, school, and volunteer at Ozone, and move in 2.5 weeks. I just don’t have time for all of it. I have to give up one, and unfortunately the only one that can go is the volunteering. I guess they have another training in the summer, but i’m bummed anyhow. Well, take it in stride girl! I need to remember that this is my 1st semester back at school in a couple of years, and I need to focus on that a little more than I’d like to. Patience is key. i just really wanna do whatever I wanna!!!!!!

Affirmation: (drumroll please:)
[spirit]

I DESERVE LOVE AND RESPECT BECAUSE I GIVE THEM.… Continue Reading...

it’s my lover’s birthday….

And I swear I’m more excited than he is. I just am overwhelmed with how grateful I am that he’s born. I just love him so MUCH!!!
Ok, that’s over, phew! Sometimes the mushy disgusting stuff just creeps up on you and you’ve gotta let it spurt. Gross. Anyhow, life is interesting as usual. I have been feeling great about the start of school, except not that great about the $400 it cost to get the fucking books. Yeah. One book cost $120. It’s criminal and I think there should be a better way.
I found out my aunt is dying. She’s got pancreatic cancer, and it’s a form that leaves little hope for those affected. Of the 29,000 that are diagnosed each year, only 100 live to see the next 12 months.… Continue Reading...

hmmm… time taken to process

I suppose I’ve been fortunate in the sense that I do not make enemies. Ever really. And anyone who has been my friend in the past is still my friend, even if we are on separate paths and we don’t see each other much. Except lately, I’ve actually lost some people. I guess it’s just been sort of a shocker. I think there is an “after shock” too. I’ve been unsure of my other friends too. I think that it will be a valuable thing to learn- that my life needs to be filled with people who support and love me and not with people who are abusive and require so much of my energy that I don’t have enough for myself. And it’s ok for me to reinvent my life if I need to.… Continue Reading...

I am about to go…

And drink a lovely caffienated, dark, warm beverage with a lovely girl who is going to help me understand the things I can’t on my own.

Affirmation:
[body]

I ENJOY BEING HEALTHY AND DOING WHAT IS GOOD FOR ME.

Use this gift when you feel resistant to doing what you know is in your best interest. The desire to sabotage our efforts to improve ourselves comes from our resistance to change. With self-improvement comes new activities, friends, and other manifestations of change we so often resist because we fear the unknown.

Have a good evening y’all!… Continue Reading...

Affirmation!!!

[spirit]
Goddess of the New

I HAVE FAITH IN THE FUTURE I CANNOT SEE.

Use this gift when you are worried or anxious. These feelings are usually caused by out attachment to either a particular outcome or to wanting to know exactly how things are going to turn out. Though oracles can predict events with enough clarity to be helpful, we have the power to change our future. How many of your past worries never came to pass?

MWWWA!
-g… Continue Reading...

All is well so far…

So last night was like the 6th night away from Jeff ever. A little hard to get to sleep, but I slept. I am officially living back at the rent’s now. It’s really nice so far. I decorated my room(totally necessary if I am to retain mental health) with all my fun apt. stuff that I would miss. It’s gonna be great.
I am sure that there will be issues, but overall I ain’t worried. That’s a great feeling considering that I have always had reason to worry. At least in my teen years. It’s a common theme. You don’t get along with your folks until your 20s and sometimes later, but then you’re surprisingly like them. You at least appreciate their contribution to who YOU are.… Continue Reading...