Author: Gracie

Death and other aspects of life…

My great aunt Clara Bell died on Christmas Eve this year. She was 90. She passed away in her sleep. I am going to her funeral on Thursday, and as bad as it may sound- I am mourning the 44,000 that died in Asia more than I am mourning...

After X-mas….

Well, I have survived the first of many shared Christmases with Jeff. Not that I was all that worried about it. It’s just that everyone on his side wants to meet me, and everyone on my side wants to meet him. There was no getting around it this year....

It’s HOLIDAY time!!!

Happy holidays y’all. I’m feeling cheery, mainly because I’ve invested some time and effort in some of my presents- so I’m really excited to give them. YAY!
Well, I’ve been thinking more and more about this friend. And I know what to do now! (it always just takes time)...

Well, the time has come to be a grown up.

That’s an interesting concept. We are what we are- always, except people have this idea of what a “grown up” is. Like friends, i guess. We have universal labels for things that are entirely unique. Language is funny like that. It is really the only way we know how...

Sad.

All I know is that I feel like this is a stupid game. I feel like I’m chasing after this friend all the FUCKING time. I’m tired, and I have no energy to chase anymore. Maybe we are just not good friends. We love each other, but we are...

How am I supposed to feel about this?

My Grandma’s in the hospital now in addition to my aunt. My dad says, “It might be best to go and see her this time. Get your siblings together too, maybe.” People die.
I don’t know why shit won’t keep happening.
I’m not upset though, I’m surprisingly lighthearted. The...

Crunch time for… EVERYTHING!

Sometimes I just feel like there’s a million and a half things to do before things are okay. Like I’ve unintentionally gone and found myself on a tightrope and the only thing I can think about is getting to safety. I don’t know. Sometimes this feeling can be thrilling,...

A new weakness…

I just discovered something! I just caught myself resenting someone for something they didn’t do. I told this person something very personal a few days ago, and since then I have looked at them like a stranger. How weird!?! Anyways, I think that it’s because I haven’t totally coped...

Sometimes, there are people in the world that have a hard time being able to function with others. This is not necessarily a bad thing, but it usually takes an understanding and patient person to “get them”. I think that’s what I was trying to do. I thought that...

My head, oy vey!

Ahhh! Sometimes I feel like I have to puke. It’s just because my head can’t deal with the stress all on its own so it enlists the help of my stomach.
I’m not sure if one of my best friends is even my friend at all! It recently came...